The first thing that comes to mind is how hard I am on myself. I put myself through the ringer when it is not required because I have the bar set extremely high. When I don’t reach it, I feel like a failure, no matter the situation.
I define a psychological portrait as one that forces the viewer to think more about the mental and emotional aspects of the image. For me, it is dark and definitely negative. Conceptually, it makes a statement about the state of mind of the artist.
My first idea was a reflection of myself while doing a long exposure. I wanted the blur of a long exposure to capture my emotional turmoil. My second idea was to use my proposal for my final project by photographing a tumultuous image of myself and place it in a bottle, then re-photograph it in a tough environment. My final idea is to do a multiple exposure where I’m fighting myself. That is the idea I essentially went with.
My image depicts how hard I am on myself. I am my own worst enemy. It is how I have been able to develop a thick skin; I beat myself up worse than anyone else ever could.
That last idea sparked an artist for me, Claude Cahun. I loved that image because she looked like she is judging herself.